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“i was so inspired by blaze when we got together those four years ago.” “i wrote more, i danced more. life was sweet & everything was transfigured into something beautiful. he awoke in me something i thought had died. he brought me back to life with his pure heart. every time i looked at him, looked into his eyes, i saw something so unbelievably deep that it shook me. & i couldn’t look away because i had to figure out what that ‘something’ was. it drew me to him in the most intense way. & now i know that it was an unimaginable kind of love. it’s hard, even now, for me to comprehend the love that he is capable of. it’s child-like in nature but it has something more to it. there’s a knowingness about it, like it’s been through so much & yet somehow managed to stay pure. & when i’m around this love it consumes me in the most unbelievable way.” “when i’m around him i turn into a child again. & what can anyone ask for in their lover besides that? i want to be eternally curious, playfully experiencing life…& with him i can’t help but do those things. when we are together it feels like we are the only two people in the world. all of life’s tiny little burdens, all the pressure that one feels throughout their day, all that just dissipates. we laugh about everything. i can take my life seriously & work so hard at becoming the person i want to be, & i know that when i come home, no matter what has happened, we are going to find something to laugh about. we are going to sing silly songs to our cats, we are going to dance for each other in the most embarrassing way, we are going to stay up way too late laying around in bed cracking jokes. at this point it’s nearly impossible for me not to be in a constant state of laughing when i’m with him. & i love him for that more than anything. because this is the person i want to die next to. this is the person i want holding me when i take my last breath. someone who has boundless love for me. someone who has shown me what it means to love. Someone who can always make me smile no matter what. “he keeps me grounded when i feel like things are out of control. he is so unbelievably supportive of my dreams & life goals. i feel like he really thinks i can do anything & somehow that makes me believe in myself even more than i already do. i just can’t imagine a world where we aren’t the happiest couple ever. where we aren’t making the most of life & living our dreams. we respect each other so much & love one another so deeply & with that it feels like anything is possible. anything is possible with the love we have. everything is pure. everything is new. everything is beautiful. we are perfect for each other.”
“i remember the first time i realized that i loved you.
i remember driving down that long road home with you, & the way the violet sky lit up behind you.
the way the light from the stars played on the water.
& that sideways smirk you made when you realized that i had been watching you.
i remember the first time i said i loved you.
& those endless brown eyes seemed somehow to grow just a little deeper.
the way your voice sounded as you said ‘i love you’ back.
& i remember seeing you for the intensely profound & deeply loving person you are.
this ever-caring soul who just wanted to love & be loved. this being who had more to give than he could of ever imagined.
i’ve watched us grow together over these past four years and i am still in awe every day when i see what we have built. i feel like we can take on the world together.
everything is more fun, everything is more funny,
my life is so much more meaningful & worth living with you in it.
i never want to be without you.
i want to be a couple of old moldies.
cracking jokes about everything, dancing around while we are cleaning, singing songs about all our cats, & forever making each other laugh so hard our cheeks hurt.
you’re the only one for me.
& i am so glad we found each other. “V.
upon the hills i thought his name
up to mind his image crept,
& on the trees was rest his frame
within the brook his being swept.
his breeze tossed birds into the sky
they danced & fluttered on his breath,
the sun exposed his hidden eye
that bathed the forest in lustrous depth.
was while i stood within his golden sight
my heart began to overflow
with rapturous feelings of such delight
that only his forest and i could know.
once, you opened
your soft little mouth
word after word after beautiful word.
& those words swept through me
like they were made of wind, & i of leaves.
they stirred my little branches
& tossed my flowers
to the floor.
your night is more than i have longed for.
pure-of-heart, i am yours alone & only yours.
i’m transfigured in your thoughtful eyes
and feel myself come sudden whole.
sweet words that linger on your lips
& move my thirsting soul.
florals: bleedfoot florals
hair: samantha knowles