here’s my slap in the face for the day.
or instead, a reminder of why i carry such a strong drive to live my life as a photographer, no matter how much is piled on my plate. i’m only human & sometimes i put too much on my to do list. yes, the stress catches up with me, but it’s nothing i can’t handle.
i think everyone goes through this. we lose sight on those days we are buried deep in a pile of tasks that need to get finished pronto, with hope it doesn’t grow into a mountain too steep to climb.
shooting & sharing a good time with my couples is what i live for, in order to do that there’s gotta be a lot of heart behind my work. i’m dedicating my days toward strategizing, marketing, editing, answering a shit ton of emails, learning from mistakes…etc. it consumes me & i love to be 100% hands on, but when wedding season rolls around it overwhelmingly snowballs into something i can’t turn off. finding that balance between my personal life & work can be tricky.
when i first started out, i always & still more often that not, said yes to everything. some of my greatest fears have been putting myself out there, hounding myself to always do better, pressure to achieve these sky-high expectations, or not being good enough for certain people. i don’t think there is any way around the negativity some bring into life, but i’m realizing it toughens me up nonetheless. so instead i’m learning to face those damn fears.
what i’ve understood on this journey is being myself makes me a more focused & determined person. i choose who i’m surrounded by & there’s specific reasons for that.
as i continue to build & modify my brand, i’m learning to be more selective with my work. yes, there’s always something to do, but i don’t want to lose sight of myself. simple as it sounds. if i can continue to remember what i want, reflect & see growth in myself, then i must be doing something right.
now to leave you with some shots of this sweetest gal audrey. one of the first afternoons that felt like fall…all you want to do is laze around & sip wine. that’s just what we did!
now it’s time to go grab another coffee & get back on my editing game before i head to san fran’s wedding tomorrow. yeee